“So fortunate. So grateful to have the ability to conceive once more. I understand how many ladies on the market are attempting to conceive, some for months [and] years,” the previous Singapore Airways stewardess wrote.
In line with Meiting, nothing issues greater than having a wholesome child—not even the gender—and he or she prayed to listen to and/or see her child’s heartbeat throughout her first ultrasound.
“[And] sure, we did. I had tears in my eyes after I heard the heartbeat,” recounted Meiting. Her gynaecologist additionally shared that all the things was going properly with the child and that her child’s heartbeat was “loud and robust”.
Nevertheless, in an surprising flip of occasions simply two weeks later in week 9, Meiting misplaced her unborn child whose estimated due date was June 3, 2021.
On Nov 7, Meiting posted an image of what appears to be a tattoo of flowers, with the date June 3, 2021.
“I knew one thing isn’t proper”
The 32-year-old recounted that she skilled bleeding the night time earlier than learnt about er miscarriage. “It began out gentle, accompanied with slight cramps,” she wrote.
Having realised that her blood was “freshly purple”, Meiting contacted her buddy who additionally skilled bleeding throughout her being pregnant. She additionally known as the emergency hotline that was given by her physician at 12.34 am.
In line with Meiting, she might solely wait till the clinic opened the following morning.
“After I was there, I went to the restroom as soon as extra [and] this time round, there was extra contemporary purple blood. I knew one thing isn’t proper,” wrote Meiting. “I used to be so afraid. I knew it isn’t regular. However I’m half hoping that it’s nothing critical and I simply wanted extra mattress relaxation.”
Accompanied by her husband, Meiting shared that she underwent an ultrasound and was devastated by what she noticed.
“I noticed the form [and] type of our child and instantly my coronary heart sank. My worst fears got here true. He/she was nonetheless, tiny [and] there was no heartbeat,” the social media influencer lamented.
Meiting’s gynaecologist famous that the child had not grown a lot since Meiting’s final go to and that had brought on the bleeding.
Her gynaecologist assured her that she was not at fault for what had occurred to her child.
“This isn’t since you carried your daughter or something you’ve finished. It was the child who stopped growing some time again,” the physician defined.
“I’m nonetheless grieving, I don’t understand how lengthy I’ll take”
Whereas Meiting mentions that she remains to be grieving, with out understanding how lengthy she is going to take, she says that she feels lighter the extra she speaks with ladies who’ve sadly gone by means of the identical loss.
“There are so so many people. Many instructed me they suffered silently, cried at night time after their husband has slept or in the bathroom once they’re at work as a result of it’s simply the way in which it’s,” wrote Meiting.
The 32-year-old hopes to lend assist to those that are going by means of an identical scenario—and that they’ll contact her.
“To fellow mothers on the market going by means of this, you may at all times attain out to me. I will not be a lot of a assist however I may be your listening ear or shoulder to lean on,” wrote Meiting.
“You don’t should undergo this alone.”
For Meiting herself, she expresses her gratitude for the love, care and assist she has obtained from family members to mates and even the general public since her miscarriage.
Addressing her angel child
“I’m eternally grateful. With out all of this love [and] positivity guiding me, I’m certain I’ll go down the darkish highway,” Meiting shared. Her mum, specifically, has been there for her each single day since her being pregnant.
In direction of the tip of her publish, the social media influencer addressed her angel child straight.
“I’ve a lot to say to you. We love you a lot. So a lot. We had our total future deliberate out with you in it,” wrote Meiting.
“Daddy was taking a look at double-decker beds [and] saying the way you [and] jiejie will share it subsequent time. He even began displaying me child’s room designs that he had in thoughts for you [and] jiejie. We’re sorry we will’t make this come true for you. However please know, we wish, prayed for and love you a lot..”