Chrissy Teigen is feeling pensive as she continues to mourn her current pregnancy loss.
Teigen — who’s mother to daughter Luna, 4, and son Miles, 2 — misplaced the son she and husband John Legend had begun calling Jack when she was 20 weeks pregnant in September.
“That is me and my physique, simply yesterday,” she captioned a photo of herself trying in a mirror on Instagram Wednesday.
“Although I’m not pregnant, each look within the mirror jogs my memory of what might have been. And I do not know why i nonetheless have this bump, truthfully. It’s irritating. However I’m happy with the place this whole journey took my physique and thoughts in different methods.”
Whereas Teigen, 35, is devastated concerning the lack of her little one, she is looking for a silver lining by remembering the positives in her life.
“I like being pregnant, so a lot, and I’m unhappy I by no means might be once more,” she wrote. “However I’m fortunate to have two wonderful little ones who’re reworking into huge little folks increasingly each single day. Anyhoo. Love u guys. Xx.”
The reminiscence of Jack won’t ever be removed from Teigen.
On Halloween, she shared that she’d gotten a tattoo with his name on her wrist. Late final month, the previous mannequin, who ceaselessly posts on social media, additionally opened up concerning the pain she’s enduring.
“I’m not tweeting a lot as a result of I’m truthfully in a little bit of a grief melancholy gap however don’t worry as I’ve a lot assist round me to get higher and I’ll be mounted quickly,” she tweeted. “they’ll name when im higher and prepared for pickup and u can swing by and seize me okay? thank u and love you!”
Late final month, Teigen revealed she was lastly capable of shower again.
“I simply had my first bathe in like two months,” she stated in a video on her Instagram story. “I’ve been taking baths as a result of I couldn’t stand to be within the bathe. I couldn’t, like, bodily stand within the bathe.”
“I really feel actually, actually good,” she added. “I really feel very clear and excellent.”
Teigen has additionally remained appreciative of all of the individuals who’ve wished her and Legend effectively.
“For weeks, our flooring have been lined in flowers of kindness,” she wrote in a late October essay for Medium. “Notes have flooded in and have every been learn with our personal teary eyes. Social media messages from strangers have consumed my days, most beginning with, ‘you most likely gained’t learn this, however…’ I can guarantee you, I did.”
Legend has additionally remained by her facet the previous few months and even dedicated his song “Never Break” to her at the Billboard Music Awards in October.
“I’m in awe of the power you’ve proven by essentially the most difficult moments. What an superior reward it’s to have the ability to convey life into the world,” he stated. “We’ve skilled the miracle, the ability and pleasure of this reward, and now we’ve deeply felt its inherent fragility.”